I have been in the unemployed stats since November. It has been eight months now since I lost my job and started to live 'the life' away from the corporate intoxication.
It was fun at first as i didn't have to worry about waking up in the morning and force myself to be sober after having one too many glasses of beer from a late night slash early morning drinking stupor with friends at O-bar or Bed bar in Malate, or simply a night cap at The Unit which usually ends up early in the morning.
I also didn't have to worry about dealing with a/an (**insert adjective) boss and hear the rantings of my few officemates for what seem to be an agonizing eight hours of their life, when in fact they can always quit and live a life they want.
Whats best is that i had the chance to travel and see places without worries of a workload piling up every day i am not in my desk, nor urgent mails to be responded to and phone calls to be deliberately ignored.
Finally, the best thing is that I had a compensation package which is considerably a BIG amount. Fair enough, i would say.
Life was like that, for a while.
I intended not to look for a job until after the holidays. I wouldn't want the corporate claws to be at my back while i was supposed to be enjoying the holidays and thats exactly what i did.
Holidays ended. The same lavish lifestyle. Travel after the other. Party after party. My fund is finally running out. I am (almost) broke.
I tried doing a 'work-from-home/project based job' for a while. I took on some writing projects but decided not to go on with it as it only made me feel 'taken advantage' by some people tried to avail my services and elude you come pay day. It sucks big time when you know that people deliberately take advantage of you. More than the monetary equivalent, its the disgrace from (the same) human kind that gets me more (de)moralized.
I have started job hunting in April and has had several interviews, and some job offer. But I remained in the unemployed list.
I have been too picky with companies to whom I submit my curriculum vitae. At the same time, it became harder for me to find companies that can at least match my salary demand (which is not too big, i supposed, as it was the same salary grade i had from my previous job).
I started to get frustrated. The panic button had to be pushed. I needed to make some compromises.
I tried bargaining and cut my salary request to at most 10-15% off my previous. I have had a few more interviews from some good companies (whom I hope are considerate enough to take into account experience and skills when they give me THAT job offer). I am now just waiting for some results, and I hope I get considered for THAT job.
I have also put on my Miss Universe wit on the job interviews i attended. Its either I make it NOW or not at all became my mantra.
For the meantime, while waiting for that call to ask me to go back into a corporate desk, I have been taking time to visit my mom in the province. Aside from the fact that this is the prudent thing to do (which I should have done soon as I lost my job, as I won't be spending when I am at my mom), I also take the chance to make it up to her. I know she always wanted me around her. I am always her baby!
Life goes on. It may be easy at some point, rough at times. But that just how it is. We don't have a choice but to simply embrace the weirdness of it all.
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