I Am Fine!

I have not been writing for a while. I dunno why. I am fine. I mean, I am happy. Someone is keeping me happy. Something is keeping me happy.

Maybe I am simply lazy, but I AM FINE!

Just a few updates, though, for whatever reason or purpose it may serve.

First, I haven't seen J for two weekends now. I know he must be busy. What's interesting is that he reacted on my previous post over the weekend. I dunno whatever reason he had, but he had to explain himself, which I least expected. I mean, I am fine with him having to say 'no' to me sometimes. I am fine that we don't see each other every weekend. I am fine that he has a boyfriend. I am fine that he goes his way while I go mine.

Don't get me wrong. I highly respect the guy. I would always speak highly of the guy. I know he means well. What I don't understand is that why he needed to explain. I know my previous post was brought up by my desire to be with him and the frustrations of having otherwise, but like what I always say, I AM FINE. I have no demands from him. Yes, it is hard handling frustrations, but at the same time, I am taking things maturely as much as I can. And when I say I am fine, that means I am fine.

Moving on, I heard today that my ex-BF "has a BF". I am FINE with that. Although it hasn't been confirmed, if ever that is the case, I can say I am fine. I my not be the happiest person (since I don't like the new guy much, not out of jealousy nor insecurity-- that's the least I have-- but out of the presumption that he cannot take care of my ex as much. I have gone and grown to be very protective of my ex over time, and only want him the best, and from what I hear, the guy fails on that area. i am not in the position to judge, though.) but then again, I am FINE.

I have  also been seeing a guy for a little more than a week now. He is a very fine gentleman. I met him at a house party of a common friend few months ago, and never heard anything about him after that until we found each other online. I know I like him, and would like to think he likes me the same. However, we are taking things lightly, which is not at all a bad thing. Nothing is forced. we just let things go as they should. So far, so good. I am Fine with how things are going with us, and looking forward to the coming days.

Finally, work is fine. Things are going smoothly with my new job. However, I have not been able to go to the office for three days now due to my sore eyes (may it be conjunctivitis, an insect bite, or a sty, i cannot tell.), but everything is fine. Afterall, there is not much need for me to be in the office yet as I can work from home, which I have been doing for a while now. Aside from the discomfort this swollen and itchy and teary red left eye brings, i guess everything is FINE.

Generally, I am FINE with only the occasional freak out!